[It's so hard to break the spell of trauma. The progression of things is routine, the same reliving of his worst moments, the things not even Tsuyukusa or Sakata know about. The things that caused so many of his mental and physical scars -- it's not like Tsuyu knows he never received many battle wounds, and that any marks he carries are recent.
But he doesn't cry. He didn't cry at the time, and he won't in his memories. He's just angry and scared, and those things come through.]
I'll kill you! I'll kill you. I'llkillyou...
[He repeats it like a mantra, like a defense. As usual in these dreams, he behaves like he's struggling, not like he' fighting a fair fight. It's noticeable when he dreams of the night he lost everything, because that's aggressive, panicked, vengeful -- but usually it's like this, like he's already lost and desperate, like he's going through past events that don't match anything he's ever spoken about.]
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[It's so hard to break the spell of trauma. The progression of things is routine, the same reliving of his worst moments, the things not even Tsuyukusa or Sakata know about. The things that caused so many of his mental and physical scars -- it's not like Tsuyu knows he never received many battle wounds, and that any marks he carries are recent.
But he doesn't cry. He didn't cry at the time, and he won't in his memories. He's just angry and scared, and those things come through.]
I'll kill you! I'll kill you. I'llkillyou...
[He repeats it like a mantra, like a defense. As usual in these dreams, he behaves like he's struggling, not like he' fighting a fair fight. It's noticeable when he dreams of the night he lost everything, because that's aggressive, panicked, vengeful -- but usually it's like this, like he's already lost and desperate, like he's going through past events that don't match anything he's ever spoken about.]